Describing the essence of the AEQ method is as challenging a task as describing the essence of life. Complexity, composition, depth and breadth, actual multi-dimensionality. But at the same time, the facts of both life and the AEQ method are development through learning, understanding the connections between steps - decisions and consequences, and accepting the necessity of changes. The time of life that flows does not stop for anyone or anything. However, there is enough time available to use it in the right way.
I myself was a prisoner of the pressure of time. I lost myself in my thinking and, consequently, my actions, so that I wouldn't miss anything. That's why I always had to be fast. And with that, superficial. This took me more and more time, as I was mostly just correcting mistakes made on the fly. Too little attention in the rush and less and less energy. A great recipe for a vicious cycle of delusion. I wanted change, but quickly without understanding. The more I wanted to avoid boredom, the less time I spent effectively and meaningfully. I always wanted to be unique and special so that I wouldn't repeat myself. Forcefully launched in all directions with little or no conscious attention to what I was doing, how I was doing it and even less to the real why. My autopilot program was that I shouldn't get bored, nor should anyone around me; that I needed to be fast, efficiency does not matter; that winning is a must because it is the only thing that adds to my value and validates hard work.
So most of my life I have been rushing and jumping from one goal to another in faith, belief and mindset to arrive at a sense of final victory. Lived outside myself in external stimuli. An example that clearly shows such behavior is putting (throwing) things into a room. I'll check it out then. Maybe I'll still need it. I don't have time to deal with it now. It's not necessary now. I like it, but it doesn't give me results at the moment. Later. Next time. Now I'm too tired to face it. Too many things are on my radar, so I had better put them out of sight, etc. It is a Pandora's box, of not only things, but also emotions, thoughts, feelings. The increase in entropy, the disorder in my life was tremendous. Both in relationships and emotions, and with things, bookmarking websites, saving videos to watch later, forgetting promises, storing things I'll never use. All this accumulated old, slow and heavy energy.
Time was poorly spent, attention was extremely narrowly focused, and energy consumption was too high. With all this, I denied the real situation and lived in a mentally created illusion. Despite all this, I tried and fought to raise the quality of life, which, however, was drastically sliding down in the background. If, on the outside, it looked like I wanted changes (only on a conscious level), to master and develop, it was actually crumbling under my feet. Until recently, I bumped into myself on a daily basis in the context of a search for higher order without content. Acting like a zombie in the back of my mind, hoarding books to read. Or I pretended to know how to organize myself for the highest efficiency in life.
Only opening myself up and recognizing more deeply what it means to be mature, has sobered me up and confronted me with the truth. I started cleaning the "room". Understanding the importance and power of daily attentive action in the right direction. But the right direction started to come from more feeling, higher consciousness, steps in reality and not in the head mentally imaginative only. Changes have become a part of life, as a spontaneous result of careful observation. I stopped the rush in my head and body. Directed the energy into myself and gave time to time. Thus began the process of understanding and changing within me to empower. False fear without foundation and worry without foundation began to give way to the gravity of actions. The natural consequence was an increase in syntrophy.
They seem to be random events, situations, recognitions or the turning on of a "light switch" in the head. And yet they happen in a certain key. Like putting together a puzzle day by day, observing where something fits and which color, the pattern is syntropic, coordinated, appropriate. That's how I got the "idea" of just lying down on the floor and feeling. That I don't need to have so many conditions and rules regarding the AEQ exercises themselves and the approach to the method. This resulted in more attention and consequently more energy available. I didn't actually stop time, but I stopped my racing mind. I went from fixing mistakes to consistency and higher efficiency.
All of this happens in parallel with my teaching and leading AEQ exercises for others. This alone adds a strong stamp, because I am internally obliged to approach every day with stronger energy, which keeps me in this mode of operation. It is as if the physical-biological awareness of the relationship between muscle lengthening and shortening has moved to the emotional, mental and overall energetic awareness.
For more than 20 years, I have struggled to manage my money in a mature way. But it triggered in me time and time again, this worker's mentality: "from hand to mouth". I can confirm that I started to act thoughtfully, prudently, and develop at this training ground as well. Money is no longer just "money", but a game and a means of development. Understanding the importance of energy in several areas, therefore.
Before, I was afraid that I would run out of time. That I miss it much. That I simply need it with maximum pressure to consume, use it up and quickly arrange anything. Which, of course, is self-creating chaos. I created disorder in a certain order and marveled at the consequences. Now I realize it's time. And how I will spend, use and respect this time effectively depends on my conscious attention.
I sit differently, more softly, with attention to the whole body (not even just to the right thigh muscle because of the worn hip). I look for settings of relaxation and establish them in reality. I move with my torso rotation, thereby increasing the flow of vertical energy. To waiting in lines, I add moving the trunk and conscious breathing with the whole body. I stand with my knees bent. I observe where my weight is and how to balance it. I focus on the task, work, obligation that is currently in front of me, and I do it focused on execution. Finally, I also know how to schedule, divide and order certain tasks into several parts and I don't have it in my head that I have to do everything at once and immediately and be the best. When pain appears, the first thing I do is calm down and look at where I was too much - or not enough. I adjust. I am no longer afraid of mistakes and frustration, because I understand the importance of learning from mistakes, because I have "more" time at my disposal. I enjoy the "new" life of higher syntrophy and higher order observation. The room is being cleaned, things that are not needed anymore are thrown in the trash. Emotions no longer overcome me randomly. I'm not afraid of my own anger. All of this contributes to the parasympathetic function of my nervous system. Because there is less fluff, mucus and unnecessary heaviness, there is more energy for correct and concrete changes. In this way, I also express myself much more sophistically, precise, consistent and appropriate. I don't have to worry about winging and talking trash like I used to. I believe that, eventually, I will reduce my jaw clenching and teeth grinding even more.
Shokunin is a superior approach to me. It actually reassured me to know that I didn't need to climb the fastest and unique way possible on anything every day. But I am in the repetition of the same thing every day, but each time a little better. That I contribute the most to the environment and to the people who trust me.
This is how I summarize the influence, essence and importance of the AEQ method in my life. A very important influence for me personally.
Jure Koščak, AEQ method level 2 teacher
Homework assignment for AEQ teacher, as a summary according to:
Textbook for AEQ method level 2 teacher, by Ales Ernst, AEQ method level 5 teacher, and Vesna Cijan